Saturday, November 15, 2008

Change

This week I've been pondering and preparing a lesson for my Beehives on preparing for change. I have to explain to them that change is inevitable whether it is desirable or undesirable. As we all know, the only thing constant is change. It has really hit me that some change can be a blessing and a curse. From the moment I laid eyes on London, it was love at first sight. I knew my life was changed forever. My little angel, so full of joy and gibberish is learning so quickly how to speak in sentences. This change has brought me pride and joy....and sorrow. She will never be an infant again, so entirely dependent on my love and attention. But, she will call me by name and tell me she loves me everyday. She can tell what she wants and that she missed me when I was gone. Change, good or bad, may be inevitable but, it doesn't mean that I can't hate it and like it at the same time. Marvin J. Ashton said, "...Many of us are suspect of change and will often fight and resist it before we have even discovered what the actual effects will be..." So fight like a warrior I will, but only in my mind, because I know she will only continue to grow. Her growth may and will cause me pain but, nobody can take those precious first years of her life away from my memory. I love you Lewie.

6 comments:

Jim and Jess said...

What a precious picture. I can't believe all that hair!! It was so dark! I guess I've never seen a baby picture of her. She's such a beautiful little girl.

I can totally relate to your post. It's only been 6 months and already I'm starting to feel the same way. It's amazing how fast they grow up and change. I guess it's the true meaning of bitter/sweet.

TJ, Bong & Kyson said...

awh that was sweet. i love lewie!

Amy Jo said...

I loved this post. It really hits home as a mom. You said everything we really feel as a mom as we watch our kids grow and change. I have found to just love the memories, but find joy in each moment of what they are doing now.

Ty, Jess, and Hunter said...

Wow... so true. I seriously teared up because I have been feeling the same way lately, with Hunter turning one and walking and just getting to be a little "boy". They get big so fast and it is so hard to let go, but at the same time there are so many new joys they bring each day.

By the way, I can't believe London had such dark hair! And so much:) She is so precious. It was so great to see you last week. You look so wonderful!

Monica said...

That was beautiful. I love you.

Witney said...

I love that picture. Miss ya!